an open letter...

I often think about my blog and what to write, so today I am just sitting down and writing the many things that come to my mind.

I live in luxury. Extreme luxury. I have a million things to be thankful for and yet I can still find multiple things to be ungrateful about. Why is this. It is because I am not focused on Jesus completely. When I am in a place of living for Him in every moment of everyday, then I should be so caught up in Him that I do not "want" anything else besides Him.

It is because I live in a world FULL of security. I know that I will have a place to live, money in my bank account, and family to rely on. While these are all blessings I am very thankful, I find it hard to be focused in such world like this. So, what do I do? There are so many distractions. How am I suppose to overcome these in order to be completely focused on Jesus. For me, I just have to constantly rely on Him, worship Him, pray, and read the Word. It is extremely difficult. Take away the distractions, ask God to push me to my furthest. Sometimes I wonder, am I really doing this right? If I proclaim He is my only purpose, why do I get so easily sucked into worldly things.

Please do not take this the wrong way. I know Jesus has placed me right where I should be and has given me these many blessings to spread His love. In fact, this has been something I have struggled with and have found this verse to be helpful, "Isaiah 41:8 - But  you, O Israel, my servant, Jacob, whom I have chosen, you descendants of Abraham my friend, I took YOU from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said, 'You are my servant'; I have chosen YOU and have not rejected you." I am beyond thankful for this and the unending blessings He has given me. 

But, I had a moment this week, were I felt completely reliant on Jesus because my security was gone. I was no longer was under my own roof, or had family right next to me. I had to pray and pray. If I am honest, I was shaken up by this experience, but I ask God to put me in these situations to pull me and push me closer to Him. It is hard for me to focus on God when I have security, but when I experiences situations like I did this week, I can feel Jesus more than ever. I feel Him right next to me saying "I am your protector" (Psalm 46:1  God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.") It makes living for Jesus 100x more real. I can see why Jesus came, right before my eyes. I am sinful, we are full of sin and desturction, but because of His undescriable love He saved us, He broke the chains, and He overcame EVERY sin. People need to know Him and I want to show them. 

Living for Jesus is not always going to be safe. It is not going to be this pretty little box full of rainbows and sunshine. But, I believe that He puts us in these situations to shake us, to move us, and pull us closer to His love. Whether these situations be as simple as stepping out to invite your co-worker to church or putting yourself in a dangerous situation in order to serve - it is for a purpose, Jesus, the almighty King, and Messiah. So, as you go into our sinful world, remember your purpose to love, to show His love at any cost. Because He is our purpose and He is the one we will stand before some day and hope He will say "Well done good and faithful servant." - what we do now determines what is ahead of us. So as we go on this week, I ask that you just pray. Pray for courage, bravery, His presence, whatever it is you need. 


This song by Amanda Cook puts these words into a song. "Say something even if your voice is shaking...."



Thanks for reading. xoxo

Moriah

finding balance in the chaos.

Balance is one of the hardest things I have had to learn. With a full time business, full time student at college, and life in general. It is exhausting. But, in no doubt it is one of the most rewarding things I have done. I have come up with a few things that have made my life easier.

1 // passion planner
Best thing I have ever bought. I plan my day out by the minute and create breaks between work and school. Go buy one here. 

this is my week. it is one beautiful mess.

2// get out of town
Not necessarily leaving your home for a weekend getaway (which would be nice), but I often have to force myself to get outside, or go do things with other people, because I am inside 24/7 and consumed with work and school. Work and school can wait. I need to spend time outside of my books and sewing machine in order for me to stay sane. Ha.

3 // make time for Jesus
Every morning I spend about ten minutes with God and just being in his presence. It has changed my life. Throughout the day I listen to my favorite worship songs and this keeps me focused as well.

4 // take a break
On Tuesday afternoon I don't work and Sundays I don't either. I try not to sew or even think about it. This is my time to refresh and renew.

painting on a Sunday afternoon.

5 // be in the moment
I always tell myself that at any moment I would stop working or studying if anyone needed to talk or just wanted to hang out. This has become true in my life and I love it. I have a long list of "to do's" but you know what is more important, being in the moment and soaking up the family/friend time while I can.

Balance is something I strive for everyday. I love my job, like it is a dream job. But I don't need to get caught up in overworking myself just to make the money or feel success. My success comes from Christ and loving him and others around me everyday. If I don't love, nothing else matter. Nothing.
1 Corinthians 13:2 says, "If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing". 

Thanks for reading, xo.
Moriah

an update on life.

As I was scrolling through my blog trying to find a picture to send to my sponsor, I saw all my posts and realized I miss blogging. I miss sharing my life adventures with you. I miss being able to see what I did a few weeks ago. So maybe, I will get back to it eventually.

But if any of you have wondered why I have been so vacant, it is because I run a full time business and am enrolled in college full time. The truth of the matter is, I don't have time for everything, but that is okay. God has opened up the doors for me to run a full time children's clothing line on Instagram (here) and I am completely amazed at what is has become. I started about 10 months ago and it has grown into something unimaginable. I put out around 40/50 items a month. Every item is made, designed, packaged by me. I send these packages all over the world and am truly in awe that I get to do this. So for now, here are a few pictures regarding my business and life shots. xoxoxo

my treat after sewing and buying fabric

late night sewing. all day. everyday.

I normally stay up late and sew, because it is quiet and I can just push till the end. Oh, and I can watch Netflix and eat ice cream while doing it. Ha

To give you an estimate on how much a put out. This is two weeks worth of work, but this week I had a one week deadline. I don't know how I still function some day, but I love it!

Thanks for reading, have an amazing week. xoxox