Tuesday, March 14, 2017
Lately, there have been many things on my plate and my brain begins to look like a scattered mess (and it is). When the to-do list piles sky high - things get cut. People get cut. Sleep gets cut. Time with the Lord gets cut. I don't always like to admit it, but some days I am just mediocre. I just check all the boxes and try to go to bed at a reasonable time.
But, when those days happen - that is when I know the enemy is starting to creep his way into me. Because I was not made to simply do life. To go through the motions or to even leave a legacy. I wasn't made to be successful. To make a living. To live a nice life. Or anything like that. I was made to unconditionally love people and show them Christ through that. (Matthew 22: 37-39 " Whether it be right here in North Carolina or in Australia. It doesn't matter. He is the reason for life.
I have a choice, when I find myself going through the motions, I can choose joy, I can choose love, I can choose servanthood or I can go back to my self-centered ways of checking the boxes. It takes a lot of humility for me sometimes to get back into His purpose for me. To really serve someone else and to be completely in the moment. To love completely just like Christ did for us.
Even after doing this for a day, weeks or years I can still feel defeated. Like I didn't do enough. But that is where God shows up. That is where our beautiful salvation comes into play. You have heard it a million times, but our works will never be enough. Ephesians 2:8 says, "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith--and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God." Our merciful God gave us salvation as a gift. He chooses to love us so we could be with Him and experience something like nothing else. Experience something eternally.
The place where we realize our purpose and His saving love for us is one of such beauty. (Romans 9: 38-39 "For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate
us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.")
It is where everything clicks. It is where you will have a peace unlike no other. It is where His love story starts to unfold. It is where, when you have that choice between being mediocre or being joyful, your whole mindset can change because He is the living spirit within you. You are free. You are adored. You are loved. Because of His sacrifice. Because of his unfailing love.
So, as another week passes - love completely. Choose Him.
Friday, February 10, 2017
We get this constant message of work harder. Hustle harder. Dream bigger. While I am firm believers in all of those things, some days I feel like I can barely get through the day. Some days I feel like I do one thing really well and then everything else slacks. I hustle really hard to work well, but then when it comes to just being with family and friends I am exhausted and can't give them my all. It is sometimes the simple things that get to me.
Life has been a lot slower these past few months and it has been lovely, but I have just been having a hard time focusing. Focusing on the Lord and being with Him. I feel like all of these things come at me when I just try and be still. The to-do list piles up: the people I never responded too, ideas I have for my business, future plans, relationships I should invest in and everything in between. It is all small small things and typing it out honestly sounds kind of silly - but in all honesty, don't we all struggle with balance?
Where is the line? Where is the balance? In what ways can I glorify God the most? Am I really making an impact in His kingdom?
In tonight's post, I don't have answers. Because in reality I rarely ever have the right answers.
I want your thoughts. Your opinions.