I often think about my blog and what to write, so today I am just sitting down and writing the many things that come to my mind.
I live in luxury. Extreme luxury. I have a million things to be thankful for and yet I can still find multiple things to be ungrateful about. Why is this. It is because I am not focused on Jesus completely. When I am in a place of living for Him in every moment of everyday, then I should be so caught up in Him that I do not "want" anything else besides Him.
It is because I live in a world FULL of security. I know that I will have a place to live, money in my bank account, and family to rely on. While these are all blessings I am very thankful, I find it hard to be focused in such world like this. So, what do I do? There are so many distractions. How am I suppose to overcome these in order to be completely focused on Jesus. For me, I just have to constantly rely on Him, worship Him, pray, and read the Word. It is extremely difficult. Take away the distractions, ask God to push me to my furthest. Sometimes I wonder, am I really doing this right? If I proclaim He is my only purpose, why do I get so easily sucked into worldly things.
Please do not take this the wrong way. I know Jesus has placed me right where I should be and has given me these many blessings to spread His love. In fact, this has been something I have struggled with and have found this verse to be helpful, "Isaiah 41:8 - But you, O Israel, my servant, Jacob, whom I have chosen, you descendants of Abraham my friend, I took YOU from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said, 'You are my servant'; I have chosen YOU and have not rejected you." I am beyond thankful for this and the unending blessings He has given me.
But, I had a moment this week, were I felt completely reliant on Jesus because my security was gone. I was no longer was under my own roof, or had family right next to me. I had to pray and pray. If I am honest, I was shaken up by this experience, but I ask God to put me in these situations to pull me and push me closer to Him. It is hard for me to focus on God when I have security, but when I experiences situations like I did this week, I can feel Jesus more than ever. I feel Him right next to me saying "I am your protector" (Psalm 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.") It makes living for Jesus 100x more real. I can see why Jesus came, right before my eyes. I am sinful, we are full of sin and desturction, but because of His undescriable love He saved us, He broke the chains, and He overcame EVERY sin. People need to know Him and I want to show them.
Living for Jesus is not always going to be safe. It is not going to be this pretty little box full of rainbows and sunshine. But, I believe that He puts us in these situations to shake us, to move us, and pull us closer to His love. Whether these situations be as simple as stepping out to invite your co-worker to church or putting yourself in a dangerous situation in order to serve - it is for a purpose, Jesus, the almighty King, and Messiah. So, as you go into our sinful world, remember your purpose to love, to show His love at any cost. Because He is our purpose and He is the one we will stand before some day and hope He will say "Well done good and faithful servant." - what we do now determines what is ahead of us. So as we go on this week, I ask that you just pray. Pray for courage, bravery, His presence, whatever it is you need.
This song by Amanda Cook puts these words into a song. "Say something even if your voice is shaking...."
Thanks for reading. xoxo