Sunday, December 20, 2015

an open letter...

I often think about my blog and what to write, so today I am just sitting down and writing the many things that come to my mind.

I live in luxury. Extreme luxury. I have a million things to be thankful for and yet I can still find multiple things to be ungrateful about. Why is this. It is because I am not focused on Jesus completely. When I am in a place of living for Him in every moment of everyday, then I should be so caught up in Him that I do not "want" anything else besides Him.

It is because I live in a world FULL of security. I know that I will have a place to live, money in my bank account, and family to rely on. While these are all blessings I am very thankful, I find it hard to be focused in such world like this. So, what do I do? There are so many distractions. How am I suppose to overcome these in order to be completely focused on Jesus. For me, I just have to constantly rely on Him, worship Him, pray, and read the Word. It is extremely difficult. Take away the distractions, ask God to push me to my furthest. Sometimes I wonder, am I really doing this right? If I proclaim He is my only purpose, why do I get so easily sucked into worldly things.

Please do not take this the wrong way. I know Jesus has placed me right where I should be and has given me these many blessings to spread His love. In fact, this has been something I have struggled with and have found this verse to be helpful, "Isaiah 41:8 - But  you, O Israel, my servant, Jacob, whom I have chosen, you descendants of Abraham my friend, I took YOU from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said, 'You are my servant'; I have chosen YOU and have not rejected you." I am beyond thankful for this and the unending blessings He has given me. 

But, I had a moment this week, were I felt completely reliant on Jesus because my security was gone. I was no longer was under my own roof, or had family right next to me. I had to pray and pray. If I am honest, I was shaken up by this experience, but I ask God to put me in these situations to pull me and push me closer to Him. It is hard for me to focus on God when I have security, but when I experiences situations like I did this week, I can feel Jesus more than ever. I feel Him right next to me saying "I am your protector" (Psalm 46:1  God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.") It makes living for Jesus 100x more real. I can see why Jesus came, right before my eyes. I am sinful, we are full of sin and desturction, but because of His undescriable love He saved us, He broke the chains, and He overcame EVERY sin. People need to know Him and I want to show them. 

Living for Jesus is not always going to be safe. It is not going to be this pretty little box full of rainbows and sunshine. But, I believe that He puts us in these situations to shake us, to move us, and pull us closer to His love. Whether these situations be as simple as stepping out to invite your co-worker to church or putting yourself in a dangerous situation in order to serve - it is for a purpose, Jesus, the almighty King, and Messiah. So, as you go into our sinful world, remember your purpose to love, to show His love at any cost. Because He is our purpose and He is the one we will stand before some day and hope He will say "Well done good and faithful servant." - what we do now determines what is ahead of us. So as we go on this week, I ask that you just pray. Pray for courage, bravery, His presence, whatever it is you need. 

This song by Amanda Cook puts these words into a song. "Say something even if your voice is shaking...."

Thanks for reading. xoxo


Thursday, September 17, 2015

finding balance in the chaos.

Balance is one of the hardest things I have had to learn. With a full time business, full time student at college, and life in general. It is exhausting. But, in no doubt it is one of the most rewarding things I have done. I have come up with a few things that have made my life easier.

1 // passion planner
Best thing I have ever bought. I plan my day out by the minute and create breaks between work and school. Go buy one here. 

this is my week. it is one beautiful mess.

2// get out of town
Not necessarily leaving your home for a weekend getaway (which would be nice), but I often have to force myself to get outside, or go do things with other people, because I am inside 24/7 and consumed with work and school. Work and school can wait. I need to spend time outside of my books and sewing machine in order for me to stay sane. Ha.

3 // make time for Jesus
Every morning I spend about ten minutes with God and just being in his presence. It has changed my life. Throughout the day I listen to my favorite worship songs and this keeps me focused as well.

4 // take a break
On Tuesday afternoon I don't work and Sundays I don't either. I try not to sew or even think about it. This is my time to refresh and renew.

painting on a Sunday afternoon.

5 // be in the moment
I always tell myself that at any moment I would stop working or studying if anyone needed to talk or just wanted to hang out. This has become true in my life and I love it. I have a long list of "to do's" but you know what is more important, being in the moment and soaking up the family/friend time while I can.

Balance is something I strive for everyday. I love my job, like it is a dream job. But I don't need to get caught up in overworking myself just to make the money or feel success. My success comes from Christ and loving him and others around me everyday. If I don't love, nothing else matter. Nothing.
Corinthians 13:2 says, "If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing". 

Thanks for reading, xo.

Sunday, August 30, 2015

an update on life.

As I was scrolling through my blog trying to find a picture to send to my sponsor, I saw all my posts and realized I miss blogging. I miss sharing my life adventures with you. I miss being able to see what I did a few weeks ago. So maybe, I will get back to it eventually.

But if any of you have wondered why I have been so vacant, it is because I run a full time business and am enrolled in college full time. The truth of the matter is, I don't have time for everything, but that is okay. God has opened up the doors for me to run a full time children's clothing line on Instagram (here) and I am completely amazed at what is has become. I started about 10 months ago and it has grown into something unimaginable. I put out around 40/50 items a month. Every item is made, designed, packaged by me. I send these packages all over the world and am truly in awe that I get to do this. So for now, here are a few pictures regarding my business and life shots. xoxoxo

my treat after sewing and buying fabric

late night sewing. all day. everyday.

I normally stay up late and sew, because it is quiet and I can just push till the end. Oh, and I can watch Netflix and eat ice cream while doing it. Ha

To give you an estimate on how much a put out. This is two weeks worth of work, but this week I had a one week deadline. I don't know how I still function some day, but I love it!

Thanks for reading, have an amazing week. xoxox

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

living on less // being grateful

Today, I would like to share with you my "Living on Less" challenge. As many of you know we often (especially me) take things for granted. Whether it be a comfy bed, or power we can get very upset when those things are taken away. I wanted to stop being so dependent on these things and start living with less.

What does that mean, you ask? Well, for one whole month starting tomorrow (March 5th- April 5th) I will be taking/limiting five things in order to live on less.

This is from the book "Seven", I hope to read in the near future. (source google images)

1. Only sleep with one pillow and a sleeping bag.
This might not sound like a lot but coming from 6 layers of blankets and four pillows (no joke), this will be tough and I am beyond grateful just to have a comfy bed to sleep on every night.

2. I will set aside four different outfits for the whole month. 
Even though I already simplified my closet but, it has grown again and it is time for me to stop taking clothes for granted.

3. Shower every other day. 
If you know me, I am a clean freak. Nice hot long showers every night. When I sit back and think about ways to stop taking my luxuries for granted this is defiantly one of them. 

4. No spending on excessive.
Ahhh, this is probably gonna be the biggest one. I had thought about doing this even before I thought of these other things, but now I am really doing it. For two reasons, I just spend a lot of money on IKEA (haha) and two I want to see how much money I actually save by not spending for a whole month. This will not include expenses that I may need to buy (ex. postage for delivering business packages). But, what this will included is food out and about I don't need, and extra shirt here and there, etc. 

5. No TV/Netflix
This is the last but certainly not least. I really want to start going to bed earlier and spending more time with God. I also want to stop staring at a screen every night before I go to bed (which is a habit I picked up after a year of not doing this, boo). This will help me be more creative and not feel like I always have to be entertained. 

By the end of reading this you are probably wondering, what my point is for all this nonsense. So here it is summed up. I have so many excess items that can drag me down and not keep my focused in life. By eliminating these five items for a short whole month, I really think my eyes will be opened to how much more there is that just the luxuries of life. But most importantly, I am looking forward to spending more time with God and enjoying the small things that I miss everyday. 

I will keep you updated with how it is going and what is new. I encourage you to do this as well or something similar. Thanks for reading. xo. 

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

giving up my future for Him...

    The last post I wrote was about being a true Christ-follower and today I would like to write about how giving up my future is totally worth everything.

    I am your typically young lady. I have plans to get married, go to college, have kids, etc. But I feel there is so much more. It has really shaken me these past few weeks and months. Up until a few days ago I thought my "American Dream" plan was fine, everyone does it, so it must be okay. My plan was to go to college, get married, and have kids, etc. While there is nothing wrong with this and this is God's plan for some people, it might not be for others. Maybe, I need to stop planing my luxury dream life for myself and remember who is in control. I have way to many luxury's to count (I am working on getting rid of them, that is a whole other post, maybe tomorrow). I never really thought that it might be a good idea to let God plan my future (I mean he did create the universe).

    I need to stop focusing on what is best for me and my future, but focus on serving people now and today in this moment. I want God to be in control of my future. His plan could be way different from mine. If his plan is to give up everything I have and go do missions overseas for a year or even forever, that is amazing! But, maybe it could just be to stay in my local area and focus on young people who need to hear God's work. Or even go to college and lead me in a whole different direction, these are all great.

    See, the thing is I don't know what is in front of me. I don't even know if I will make it till tomorrow morning. So why worry about the future when today has enough troubles. Matthew 6:24 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.  Each day has enough trouble of its own."

    The sole purpose of my life needs to be to worship, honor, love, and serve him and I am praying and will continue to pray intently for him to reveal his plan to me. I don't know what is ahead but God has a purpose and whether or not I think it is best doesn't matter. It is his plan, I fail everyday at this and am far from perfect, but I live to glorify him and need to put all my faith in him.

Thanks for reading. xo.

Sunday, February 8, 2015

Why just saying your prayers, doing your devotion, and going to church doesn't mean you are "all in"

Oh I have been itching to write this blog post. I was in the middle of listening to a Francis Chan sermon and I just had to stop and write this. I feel like I need to share a few things I have learned these past few months and how much it has changed my life.

First off, I do not have all the answers, I am far from them all. But I really feel called to write this.

Over the past few months I have realized something incredible but also a little heart breaking. For the past 10 years or so I have been a "Christian"; I went to church, did my devotion, prayed, longed for God, was nice, etc. But not until recently I had a reality shock, I don't know what clicked, but God really opened my eyes. I thought what I was doing was fine. I was living a great life, great family, no problem.

I had heard a lot of stories of people with the same back story as mine but in the midst of it all they got a reality shock just like I did. But you I always thought to myself when I heard these stories, "no that is not me", I have a great Christian faith. Boy was I wrong.

Oh my,  I cannot begin to express what being a true Christ follower is and what a difference from what I thought it was. Let me just tell you there is so much more joy and hope than anything I have ever experienced. It all really made me question if Jesus where to come down on this Earth and approach me face to face, what would I say, what would I do, would I feel like all my life's work was for the glory of God or just to look nice and pretty, was I giving it ALL up for Him or just "enough" to look good.

These questions wondered my mind for many months, I listen to some sermons and read some books. It really had me thinking. All this time were all these friends I was surrounding myself with, were they all in for God, was I even all in for God? I honestly don't think I was. Do you know how much that scared me? To think all this time I was missing out on the true meaning of being a disciple of Jesus. It really shook me and still does.

See, I believe God wants us to stop trying to live this pretty little nice "American Church Dream" but just go do something to glorify him. Stop worrying about your future, your safety, or your savings account.  Really, if you are gonna be who you say you are stop faking it and live it all out for the only eternal person on this earth. Nothing, NOTHING on this Earth matters. It is all worthless, worthless, it is nothing.

Giving it all up for God, has given me so much hope, faith, and joy.

This American Church Dream I see so often, it is just a routine (that I was in for quite some time).  If you really want to know what it is to be a discipline for the one and only true King, step out of your comfort zone, make people question why you live in such a way. Really. Do it. I heard this message so many times, oh and it never hit me that maybe just praying, doing my devotion, and going to church was not enough for the one true, holy, worthy God.

There are so many people who I thought were "all in" for Jesus and now I am started to question, are they really in it for the long run.

 If you don't want to read anything else but this, just listen for one moment. I challenge you to really ask yourself if Jesus came down here on this Earth right now and told you to leave everything behind (I mean everything, family, career, etc) would you?  Would you die for him in a heartbeat? Every day and in everything do you live for his glory?

I still have questions and am asking myself these questions. I am still figuring it all out, but I know now more than I ever have that my Holy, Worth, Amazing, Incredible, God is worth so much more than I could ever fathom and He is worth every moment of my life. He is so much more worthy than I will ever be and his grace is incredible.

Thank you so much for reading. I hope all you see is Jesus through this post. It is all for his glory. Now go love the world and shine bright for Jesus. xo

Here are a few resources that really made me think: I highly recommend them. 

What do you need in order to be happy? Francis Chan (the best sermon I have ever heard)

Crazy Love Book  By: Francis Chan

Radical Book By:David Platt (while I am still reading this I have heard great things of it)

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

book reviews

Recently I completed two books, (first, lets just take a moment to realize I actually read something), Crazy Love by Francis Chan and Live Large Be Different. Shine Bright. by Dough Fields and Joshua Griffin. Let me tell you Crazy Love was one of the best books I have read. If you have not read it, it is a must. It really puts a new meaning to being a true Christ Follower. The book challenges you to step out there and do things, and well if you are not willing to do it then maybe you should take a look at your faith again. I personally love Francis Chan, he is so good with his words and getting to what scripture really means. One huge thing I picked up in the book was to stop waiting for God's calling and obey the scriptures (ex. adopting a child or even as simply as stepping out of your comfort zone at work). This book is a life-changer. I highly recommend it. 

The other book I read,  Live Large Be Different. Shine Bright. was aimed more toward teenagers but honestly it could apply to anyone. The book covers 12 different topics for healthy relationships, from integrity to getting out of "cliques". This book is not very intense at all, compared to Crazy Love. It is a good calming read and has questions to go along with it as well.

But if it came down to it, Crazy Love is probably (scratch that, it IS) my favorite book of all time.

Crazy Love - get here
Live Large..... - get here 

Thursday, January 22, 2015

guest post at cut out + keep!

Right now, I am working on a guest post for this lovely site called Cut Out + Keep. They are so great to work with and have asked me to put together a special post. It will be featuring Audrey Hepburn. I will be putting together a DIY her look post with the help of some people from Cut Out + Keep. I thought I would share some inspiration pictures and quotes from her lovely look. Enjoy. Thanks for reading. xo

This article is about her style and what she taught us. It is all so true.

Thursday, January 15, 2015

curtain inspiration

Update // I just finished the curtains last night here is a sneak peek...

Right now I have blan old curtains and I have been doing some research (as in Pinterest) and have found a way to hand paint my curtains. I also might add some pom pom. Not quite sure yet. But for now I just have the inspiration. Which are a bunch of Anthropolgie curtains. Ha.

Curtain 1  // Curtain 2

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Pinterest love

It has been way too long since I have done a Pinterest favorite post. So here it is! I love doing these posts because it gives me a reason to go on Pinterest. Ha.

So, I have pulled my faves from the last few weeks/months and put them in a pretty pictures with links below.

In left to right order:

Pin 1: This is a blanket scarf my friend Olivia showed me, and I am in love. It is basically a big blanket that can turn into a scarf. Go check out how to wear one similar here.

Pin 2: These pom pom curtains are from Anthropolgie. But, as usually they are too expensive and so I'm so gonna try and make them. I am super excited. Check out the original pin here.

Pin 3:  Once again, it is from Anthropolgie and I love it again. But it is too expensive, so the best option will be too sew it, once again. Go check it out.

Pin 4: This quote is so true. We all need to stop and take a deep breath. 

Thanks for reading. xo

Monday, January 5, 2015

new year. new changes.

Happy New Year to you all! I know it is a little late but I hope you had a great one. I know it has been a while since I have blogged. But there will be some changes coming this new year, some good and bad. But I know 2015, is gonna be a good year!

First off, because I have other sewing commitments, I will not be posting on my blog as much as I have in the past year. I am still posting, don't flip out! Ha. But as much as I wish I had all the time in the world, I don't and I can only handle so many things.

So this new year will consist of me posting once or twice a week. I will try and keep these post lengthy to make up for the week. In the end I am excited about 2015 and the new year and new goals! In February is my blogs 2 year anniversary! Woo hoo! Thank you all for the love and support. Xox.